I've had so much I want to write about lately... so many emotions over the past month... much of which relates to my job and trying to figure out who I am outside of my role as instructor because while it doesn't define me, so much of my identity is tied to it in the last 9 years. And let's face it, that role has changed abruptly. I guess I'm still doing it in a virtual way by myself, but I really feel more like I'm on an extended vacation I never asked for... because goodness knows, I rarely get a sub unless I'm out of town or at death's door.
I don't like missing class.
My role of MOM isn't quite as hands-on as it used to be now that Bryn is almost 19. Yes, she still relies on me to keep a roof over our heads, pay the bills and be the adult around here (& I use that term loosely), but let's be honest... we've been abruptly thrown into me being her new college roommate for the rest of the semester. And I imagine her former roommate didn't pester her to go outside and take a walk or run. She eventually gives in, but it's probably not at the top of her list of fun things to do.
But what else is there to do? Besides maybe pester her to help with the dishes and argue with her that... NO, she's not going to go hang out in Columbia just for tonight no matter how many times you ask me. Trust me... I get it. This stinks. It is what it is though, so let's make the best of it.
And that reminds me... I never did post pictures of her abrupt exit from Mizzou last month. Thankfully my parents helped us move her out because let's just say... she's her mama's girl with a lot of stuff and we needed an extra car...
Anyhoo... we all feel the same about this virus situation, I know. And it's a day to day thing when it comes to the emotion in all of it.
But bring on Easter. It's a holiday I always always celebrate with family and for many of the more recent years, we've spent it in Denver with my sister, Marci, hosting us. It's also the anniversary of my sister, Kaysy's, death. It was March 31st... 18 years ago... and Easter Sunday that year. Horrible memory for a holiday, but we've managed to get to a place together where we're celebrating her life rather than being stuck in grief over her death. It took time though. Many years.
While we won't all be together in Denver this year, hitting Red Rocks for Easter Sunrise Service... which by the way is a MUST if you've never done it... we will be all attending a virtual church service together and then doing a family Zoom call afterward. It will result in many laughs, I'm sure, probably a virtual cocktail in hand if I know my family, and will be as good as we can have right now.
I listened to the following video the other day & thought I'd share. This guy is always very compelling & engaging with his content, but very real in what he shares about putting our current reality into perspective. It's worth the listen when you have a few minutes!
Love that he said at one point "these kinds of businesses are hard even when they're easy"... which just about sums up the fitness industry too.
If I can ask anything... and you're part of that industry along with me... hang in there with us. We're determined, so VERY determined, and we've managed to quickly change gears and provide virtual services, but we're counting on you too. And maybe a few prayers as well.
We're all in this together.
Happy Easter, peeps. You all ROCK.
XOXO
