I woke up to a text from a friend yesterday. It was a screen shot of a page from her daily devotion & part of it reminded her of me. A conversation we've had in the past that related to it. She's a very dear bestie of mine & I don't always get to see her, but it was really nice to get a random text.
Let me just first say that I find it so kind when someone thinks of me when they see something & then reach out to let me know.
I've tried to become more aware & purposeful in reaching out to people when they cross my mind, especially if I haven't seen them in awhile. I know it means a lot to me when it happens out of the blue & you just never know if someone needs a smile!
So... in my response to her text I mentioned I needed to get better with reading my own daily devotional book because I was hit & miss with it. I'll be really good with reading it first thing every day... & then I'm waking up late or sleeping in when I don't have a class.... and next thing I know everything's gone to hell in a hand basket... also known as I'm just starting my days reading stupid Facebook instead. SMH
However, her text reminded me to open up my book & read. So I thought I'd share what I read...
Here's what I love though.
This daily devotion reminded me that I JUST had a dream that night about 2 people that hurt me in some way in real life. Like both of them, were in the same dream. And the hurt had nothing to even do with each other.
I may not have even picked up my book this morning had it not been for my friend's text.
I may not have been reminded of my dream had I not read my devotion.
I may not have been reminded that not forgiving, only pollutes ME... keeping a hold on MY life, not theirs.
I wouldn't say I live with bitterness or resentment by any means, but clearly some level of the hurt is in my subconscious and letting go of that is a choice I can certainly make!
Do you ever have dreams so vivid that they stick with you all day? And then... God forbid you see that person & you're still mad about the dream... and then you're giving them the side eye like... oh you KNOW what you did in my dream... LOL
I have a few recurring dreams... likely all stress-related I guess... one of which is where I'm back in college.
I get through the entire semester & then realize I've missed going to a class and I'm going to fail. Like I've missed the entire semester & I'm thinking in my dream... how could I not find this class... how did I not go to this class for an entire semester... I'm an idiot!!
It always feels so real that I'll still be anxious about it after I wake up.
I've talked to a lot of people who've gone to college & have similar dreams since then.
Also have a friend who told me she has a recurring dream that she's back in high school & can't remember her locker combination.
I mean... if that's the worst thing that can happen... really??
I guess I shouldn't judge. Maybe she couldn't get her locker open & was late to class. Being tardy to the party is stressful, I suppose.
But back to forgiveness... just do it. Not for them, as you don't necessarily need to say to their face, "I forgive you," but for YOU. Especially if it's a friend. Let's be honest... as much I love my female friends, women can be... shall we say... not so nice.
Of course, I suppose men can be the same... LOL
Forgive and just move on with your awesomeness.
And on that note... I'm hitting the beach this weekend with my awesome family. Bryn is already there, but my sister & I join them tomorrow. Can't wait!
Wow ... that is one powerful page!!! Love it!! Cute pic of Bryn! Have fun at the beach!!!!
Posted by: Julie Tucker-Wolek | July 18, 2019 at 06:06 AM