14 years ago on March 31... Easter Sunday to be exact... my sister Kaysy passed away suddenly as a lot of you already know.
An autopsy would later reveal it was meningitis... something that doesn't usually cause death & I'll still never understand why it would take her life at only 31 yrs old.
It was & still is the worst moment of my life... losing my sister & best friend.
Bryn was 9 months old though at the time, & her own daughter (my niece Sydney) was only 8 months old, so life had to go on for her as happy as possible even though I was so angry for so long.
Dancing would eventually help with that & still is my therapy.
Suffice it to say, Easter hasn't been my favorite holiday since that moment. But as with all grief... while it never completely goes away... it does lessen in time.
Also since that moment, I do truly believe she's brought incredible friends into my life too. Moments that make me shake my head & know it's her presence in action.
Like the random recent convo with a bestie when she mentioned during a long story that her best friend passed away on Easter.
I said, "Wait... what? On Easter?"
She said, "Yes."
I said, "How long ago?"
I ended up telling her about my sister. Think we were both speechless.
When we got off the phone, I think I cried for a half hour. Then texted my sister, Marci, to tell her about it. Still shake my head.
Unbelievable... & it also makes me smile knowing someone else in my life understands.
Here are some other random things making this a GOOD Friday & a happier time in my life though...
- Lots of awesome friends in Zumba this morning... gotta love it, especially since most of the classes have been lighter this week!
- Having people willing to jump on stage with me & totally make my day!
- Spring Break madness with a teenager... shopping, eating out, the Zoo... well we ARE the zoo usually
- Getting to see young kids come alive while doing Zumba during their camp at the Y
- A job that I LOVE because I get to watch people get healthier... happier... stronger!
- A friend finding a 3-leaf clover necklace because she knows it's a logo we've used with mine & my sister's initials since she passed
- Receiving the sweetest card ever & a bottle of chardonnay with a rooster on it because it's a hilarious inside joke
- Having a bestie change plans for everyone just so I won't miss out & can go too
- New opportunities
- Receiving an unexpected Edible Arrangement delivery... yummy!
- Upcoming trips to look forward to
- Good friends, an awesome family & the best daughter I could possibly ask for
Life is good.
Happy Easter weekend & much love...
My heart goes out to you Deana. I'm so sorry for the loss of your sister. I can't begin to imagine what you've gone through. You get up on stage many times a week encouraging and helping others build their confidence, get in shape and provide an uplifting happy place. Now knowing what you carry daily in your heart and seeing you on stage teaching Zumba with a smile is truly an inspiration by seeing your strength inside and out. Thank you for sharing and in helping all of us heal in our own way 💗💕. You've been a blessing in my life more than you know 🤗 Big hug!!
Posted by: Angela Medina | March 26, 2016 at 01:03 AM
I can't believe it's been 14 years ... big hugs to you my friend xoxoxo <3
Posted by: Julie Tucker-Wolek | March 26, 2016 at 08:20 AM