Ok dang it. Interesting day aside.... I need a friend who can edit music for me. I've figured out how to edit the time where a song begins or ends, which is great since sometimes there's long time gaps at the end of songs, but I really need to bleep out certain words to be able to use the songs I want to use. I personally like the dirty version of songs, if you could only see the looks I get from Bryn when one of those songs accidentally gets played, but I can't use them everywhere I teach.
"Mother of the Year" recipient right here. And if I didn't win the prize for the dirty music, I'm sure I'll win it for many other ways in which I've messed up.
Nothing years of therapy won't fix.
Anyway, while searching for a "radio edit" I found Sound Cloud... a place where people have put their own remixes of songs for download. Pretty awesome, but of all the remixes for this particular song, no one appartently decided to bleep out the words I wanted out.
Anyone know of any editing programs that work for this?
I know... I'm asking people who are primarily reading this for crafting purposes & really don't care about editing music. LOL
Welcome to my delusional world where I have way too many interests.
Shall we dance? I'll lead.
On another note... this blog post was going to lead into my recent Arizona trip, but in light of today's news I'm changing directions.
Depression.
Suicide.
Alcoholism.
I read this quote once that struck a nerve with me...
"People who are innately funny, are innately disturbed." -Keenan Wayans
Robin Williams is the 2nd suicide I've heard of in the past 2 weeks. The first was someone I personally knew & who played a role in my life at one time. And prior to that person, I've known 2 other people very well who took their own lives, as well as someone who attempted it & was taken to the ER in time to stay alive.
While it may immediately end the pain of the person suffering, it sure does leave their family & friends with a lifetime of pain. Such a selfish & senseless way to die.
I might also add that none of these people I knew were already dying from a life-threatening disease. That may have been a different Kevorkien story which would've made more sense.
Depression usually goes hand in hand with alcoholism, which is a depressant. Wicked circle. Silent killer. I think most hide behind something... even humor.
I've personally had my own bout with depression... post partum. And maybe post post-partum, who knows. I realized when I was crying every day beginning about a month or so after having Bryn that something was a little off. So my doctor prescribed a low dose anti-depressant. I took it for 2 months & decided I was doing better & would wean myself off it.
A month later, my sister passed away suddenly from meningitis.
I don't know. Maybe I should've gone back to the doctor. Maybe I should've talked to a counselor at the time. But is it truly a medical condition when you lose someone who means the world to you or do you just have to deal with the immense pain like everyone else who goes through that?
I think true depression is different. It's a disease that requires medication. No different than heart disease or any other disease that gets medicated.
I think a lot of people who are truly depressed, don't realize they can be medicated & actually feel better.
For me at that time, I had to get out of bed every day for my daughter who was 9 months old. I eventually found work-out classes that would change my life for the better.... classes that still change my life & attitude every single day. It took me out of what felt like a permanent state of disbelief & anger that I was stuck in.
There really is something to the therapy you get from the gym, especially the people there. So incredibly thankful.
Everyone puts their best face forward in public or on social media... but behind closed doors is another story. You only know part of what's really going on with those that you're closest to. And even with them, you don't know the whole story.
Maybe it's just the Dr Phil in me... but I often wonder if the over-posting of status updates & selfies are really a cry for attention or help.
Unless someone asks for help, it's hard to tell.
Very sad.
Ending this on a happier note with the song I really really want to edit...
Who knew RuPaul could sing? Other than my friend, who's currently using his "Geronimo" song for her class.
Awesome album. If you like to dance, that is...
