I think this very thought every year at this time. In addition to all that we have going on around here, it's also the end of the school year... which means that I somehow get school party planning responsibilities on my shoulders as well. I do it for Bryn, because she REALLY wants me there. It's just that I have a lot going on right now, so laying awake at night thinking about the class party getting planned is the last thing I want on my mind. I'd much rather just show up, watch & leave the job to someone else. Really. I would.
Which brings me to a blog I enjoy reading. I started reading Stephanie's blog because she's a very talented scrapbooker. But what brings me back every day is her ability to express herself through her writing. She speaks with such honesty about being a mom & I can totally relate to much of what she says. She has 4 very young daughters, 2 of which are twins & not even a year old yet. In her post today she was talking about losing her patience or yelling or being sarcastic. And how yesterday was a "scream in the pillow & want to drink a bottle of wine kind of day." While I don't have a husband in the military who is away from home a lot, and I don't have 4 children... I can relate to having moments of temporary insanity. I'd like to think we all can relate to that. Whether we say it or not.
Like yesterday for instance. I was completely irritated to find out that I needed to get a class party organized by next Thursday, and for some strange reason had been under the assumption all year that I wasn't going to have to do that. So as I'm sitting in the bathroom thinking about how irritated I was, Bryn barged in & yelled, "Hey Mama!" It was a sweet, innocent thing on her part, but I yelled, "What?!" partially because of what I was thinking about just prior to that & partially because when I'm in the bathroom there's no knocking. It's like Grand Central Station... may as well invite the neighbors in too! Anyway, she just looked at me & said, "Are you mad?" I said, "No. I'm just annoyed about the class party." She said, "Well don't be mad at me!" I said, "I know. I'm not mad at YOU, I just get frustrated when people just assume I can do something without asking first. I'm sorry I yelled."
Just one of the many, many conversations we have while I'm in the bathroom. Although I guess someday I'll be missing that & wishing she was home to barge in on me. LOL Anyway, in reading Stephanie's blog I guess she makes me feel normal. Like I'm not the only one who sometimes feels like I may lose my mind. Or maybe I already have & I just haven't realized it yet?
Lucky for me I have awesome friends. And just having lunch with them & laughing my butt off makes everything ok. Even school parties. It will be get planned and in just a couple weeks, my 4th grader will be looking forward to her last year of elementary school in the fall. The last year of school parties. Definitely going to get her the American Girl doll stuff she wants for her birthday, too. Maybe we can extend her youth & innocence just a little bit longer. ;-)
More fun times ahead this weekend, which means MORE party pics with my friends! Love them!
